Heart of Courage

Courage comes with a price.

It is not easy to ask for what you want. It is not easy to ask for what you deserve.

It should be, but for me it’s not.

I go with the flow. When dealing with people not too much bothers me. I know people are going to make silly mistakes. They make choices based on their own interests and what serves them the best at any particular time.

I deal with a population of very selfish people ONLY looking out for themselves…teenagers. It isn’t their fault. It’s what they do.

The problem is when those teenagers become 30-somethingers and continue to act as teenagers. The only way they do anything is if it serves them. They do not care who they hurt as long as they get what they want.  

I had to face a demon today by asking someone for something owed to me. Based on the person and the preferred method of communication I went with email. I simply wrote in small sentences and short words what I needed.

I did not mince words; I did not draw it out.

Basically, I was a B-word…

I hate being a B-word. Even if the person on the other end completely deserves it, I have difficulty expressing myself and asking for what I need. My heart was racing when I sent the email and I felt a little out of sorts. Upon further review of the situation I feel my true anticipation is whether or not this person will follow through with what he owes me. Regardless it took courage for me to take the first step.

A friend of mine has to take a difficult first step to make a change in her life as well. Her working situation has been less than optimal. People have made it a point to make her miserable on a daily basis. Through it all she has managed to keep a smile on her face and not let it affect her performance.

Her health has suffered, but her coworkers would not know there was any problem.

I admire her immensely to go to her office, which I call the Lion’s Den, and deal every day. It is her story to tell in her own time, but she has enormous courage. She must muster every ounce of courage to deal with adults acting like teenagers.

When did this happen? When did we as people become so selfish that we hurt others to serve our own interests and make ourselves feel like better people?

I am glad there are still human beings out there who do not make every day and situation about them.

They are the ones with true courage.

Inspiration song…Heart of Courage by Two Steps from Hell